Blog #29 - One Step Forward, Two Steps Back
I'm quite over cars at the moment. If you read my post on the 16th you would know about how I'm dealing with some car troubles.
When I last wrote about it I thought I had things under control, I was confident I diagnosed the problem and was feeling pretty good about my new mechanic skills.
Last night I was completely humbled by my little red car. Everything I thought I had diagnosed was not correct. I'm not mad, I thought I would be given the time and money invested. I'm a little worn out and tired but also excited and curious.
I've booked my car in for a diagnostic on the 30th. I'm really not sure what the next chapter is gonna hold. Depending on the cost of the repairs I may not keep the car. Losing the car though means a big lifestyle change. I currently work 30 minutes from home, and without a car, I'm not sure if I can keep my current job; which I love.
Losing my car could mean committing to another type of job much closer to home. Losing my car might mean doing landscaping full-time. I'm blessed honestly. Whilst my car breaking on me is a huge practical and financial problem I'm surrounded by family and friends who want to help me and see me succeed. I'm going to be borrowing my mum’s car in the meantime and if I'm prepared to fully commit myself to the work 5/6 days a week there will be landscaping work for me.
I think the fact that I'm ultimately going to be okay regardless has taken my anxiety and given me a sense of excitement. In my last post, I talked about starting a dog-walking business, that is no longer viable if my car doesn't work. I'm now helping my roommate grow his landscaping business.
The future, whatever it brings is really exciting. I love doing new things and meeting new people so I'm confident that as long as my commitment and priorities are placed correctly I will succeed; whatever that looks like.
I'm learning that as long as I show up, as long as I give 110% I will be okay. Cars, jobs, and friends all come and go and that's ok. Everything will be fine, I'm just excited to see what's next.
Bit of a shorter one this week but this is all you're getting. I'm very worn out but also excited. Next week is Christmas, and the week after is New years. I hope everyone has a relaxing holiday period and an exciting 2025.
